rant

Just think of all the work put into getting all those little chemicals into the a neat row inside the little vicodin tablets that are packaged in a neat row of little plastic trays and then placed in another neat little row in the store. Then think of all the energy expended to get the people their cars and to train them to park in a neat row outside the store and stand quietly in neat little lines inside the store.

Throughout all of our society, huge amounts of energy are expended and so much stress is caused by our obsession with neatness and control. You can see it in action when a parent hurts their child's spirit in the name of safety, or cleanliness, or religion, or any other forced order.

I don't respect that order, I think we are all cowering from the truth of life within our layers and layers of neat little rows. And in our denial we hurt eachother and completely ignore so many social opportunities, like a populous living, working and loving blind. These ordered systems invade our private lives, yet a shred of chaos still exists within them, which seems to be the only thing left that keeps us strong and gives us a challenge to live with that makes our powerful as we learn ways to deal with it, and makes our lives worth living.

In short, chaos is a natural state whose unpredictable brutalities and softnesses shape human beings into tolerant, strong and able individuals. On the other hand order is chaos which has been manipulated and forced to fit a mold. Within such a system people become lost as if in a white expanse flat as glass, and have no landmarks to direct themselves, and no experience to draw from. Wherever any raise in terrain or color comes into this white expanse of our ordered world, we try as hard as we can to stamp it out. As a matter of fact we spend our whole lives and energies on that one activity.